Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I'd rather just burp.

Today Mimi had me do mountain climbers, some other crazy stuff that hurt, and then... oh lord ... then Burpees.













Yeah.  Those.  Only I was holding an 8# weight in each hand.

I'm already sore.

Good.  But sore.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

know any good bed time stories?

I've had a pretty good day.

Classes went well.  Gave tests, made assignments, got some grading done.

I went and got pet food I feel good about.  I've fed the girls grocery store brands (well, Purina brands) for just about ever.  And I got to thinking one day about how they really are my family, and when I went to feed them that night I thought, "I feed my family like crap." So I got the good stuff for them, and am committing to sticking with it and making adjustments elsewhere with my budget.  (I'll be going from spending about $25/month on food for both to around $50/month on both.  I can manage that.)

Then I came home and did some major cleaning in my bedroom.  Had a solid stand up dinner. Went outside to toss the ball around with Bailey, and ended up getting a lot of weeding done because the air was so nice and cool out.  Took a nap.  Listened to some health-related podcasts.

It looks like I'm actually going to make it to bed before 11pm, too!  Hell, if I start moving now I could be in bed with a book by 10:20pm.

Monday, March 28, 2011

and I did it with jazz hands

It really is all mental.  Just about all of it.

Mimi had me do side planks today.  Side planks.  Oy.  What's a side plank?





Yeah.  I told her I couldn't.  Then I did it on my left side.  It was hard, but I did it relatively quickly.  But then came my right side.  And I told her I couldn't do it.  And I kept trying.  And telling her I couldn't do it.  And she kept telling me I could.

Then she had me do the left side again, and as I was getting up into the plank, she said, "Remember how this feels.  And re-create it on the other side."

And I did.  I totally did.

And I mentioned before that eating hasn't been so good for me lately.  I've caved to temptation, sweet temptation, far too often.

But not today. Not when I was at the coffee shop and they had muffins.  Not when I went to the other coffee shop and they had cherry cake.  Not when I went in to grab a bottle of water at the gas station and had all that candy looking at me.  Not when I went to the grocery store for dog food.  I thought about it.  Each and every time I was just THIS close to doing it.  But, somehow I made it into a game.  A "I bet you can do it.  I bet you can get out of here without stuffing something bad in your face" game.  And I let myself celebrate and be happy about it.  Let myself think of me as strong.  And in control.

Sometimes it really is about just believing you can do it.

If I can do a side plank, I sure as hell can pass on a piece of cake.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

when dreams were all they gave for free to ugly duckling girls like me...

All better.  With the exception of the allergies that are now plaguing me and everyone else in the Piny Woods.  Spring time!  Azaleas! Magnolias! Irises! Sneezing!

I got better.  And then it was Spring Break.  And then I was in a play.  Well.  I was the narrator for a cabaret show on 60's folk music.  Kept me busy but was far from difficult.  Rather enjoyable to hear some of those beautiful voices every night.

So today begins life going back to normal.

But to catch you up, in brief, on my other goings on...

1. One of my scripts got picked up by a new theatre company in Manhattan.  It's slated for production in October of this year.  WOO!

2.  My contract got extended and a title promotion is in progress.  I can't express to you the relief I felt when the words came outta my boss's mouth.

3. I've decided to stay in the house I'm in, and am negotiating some things with my landlord.  (I want to paint, add a digital thermostat, and have some plumbing looked at.)

4. I'm having tax issues.  They're being taken care of and their for years ago when I had inheritance things to deal with, but wow it's stressful.

5. I'm cooking for three families now.

6. Have gone out a couple of times with a new man.  Like him.  Afraid he might be too much older than me.  But we'll see.

And I've been working out with Mimi pretty regularly but have done a piss poor job of working out on my own.  Also done not a great job eating.  I had a big dessert last night.  Shouldn't have.  I forget how horrible I feel afterward.  Went to bed feeling sooooo nauseous.  M.u.s.t.  r.e.m.e.m.b.e.r.  Not only is it bad for my blood sugar and my waistline, it makes me wanna puke.

So today I've got a ton to do.  But I want to try to do it as leisurely as I can manage.

A. Wash and put away dishes.
B. Grocery store.
C. Cooking.
D. Wash and put away dishes, again.
E. Assign final projects for section 2.
F. Laundry.
G. Work out.  (Might kill 2 birds with one stone and count weeding the garden as exercise.)
H. Go to Jessie's for an hour-ish.
I. Pick one room in the house and make it clean.
J. Change out litter box.

This whole week I need to focus on grading, assigning, and making my house/life livable again.  As well as eating better and exercising regularly (especially cardio.)

Yeah.