Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Less lost

Great day in a lot of ways.  Not so perfect in others.

I handled both works well.  All my classes went well.  Better than expected, actually.  Even after getting thrown off by a students long, long story in my last class.  I'm even still on track.

Also found out I'm getting partially funded for my NYC trip next month.  Need to start getting things lined up for that.  I should be leaving in one month.

The audio job went fairly well, too.  I got some criticism from my boss that was delivered well and I took it well, and we're trying to problem solve together.  Part of my problem is that I am working too many hours and not getting everything done.  (Note: I am not paid hourly.)  So.  I need help.  Or a window of time to do nothing but get caught up.

I went to dinner with friends this evening.  Had a really good time and lots of fun chatting and delicious food.  But it was 'bad for me food.'  I decided it'd be an experiment to see if Lact-aid (sp?) would help with my lactose intolerance.  Excitingly, it did!  And I got to eat fettucini alfredo!!!  And then come home and eat ice cream!!!  So.  Yay dairy! Yay lactaid!  Not so yay feeling like a fat ass.  I did well all day up until dinner.

Dinner is pretty much my downfall.

I think it's gonna have to be the exception to go out for dinner.  And the rule to stay in.  And make healthy things.  I've got breakfast and lunch down no problem.

Also.  I told Diane this blog exists.  I should send her the link.

Tomorrow I plan on working 10-6:30pm.  There will be various breaks, but I can take my 'chromebook' and work some before and after breaks if needed.  I want to walk in the morning but am not gonna force an early rise.  It's not getting really hot until after noon or so, I should be fine.  I also need to write two quizzes and a handout tomorrow for school.

I'm feeling less lost.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Been a long while

Over two years.

In that time I gained a hell of a lot of weight back and had back surgery.  The former had quite a bit to do with the latter.

And it's time to get my shit back together.  I find always turn to blogging/writing when I reach this point.  Hopefully that's a good thing and it will help.

I can run for the first time in a year next week.   Doctor approved, safe running.

I need to start making better choices.  That's what it all comes down to.  Some say fate.  Some say chance.  I think it's a choice by choice thing.

And I need to make better ones.

About the way I eat (too much and not the right things), the way I think (pessimist overload), the way I sleep (a lot, but not well), and the way I work (too damn much and not in a time structured way.)

When I feel good I tend to make better choices.

I don't feel good.

Which means I need to make different choices. 

Chicken and the egg.

Don't tell anyone, but if I started running a week and two days early....it wouldn't matter so much, would it?

It'd be a choice.

Right now I'm going to choose to do some prep reading for class tomorrow.  I'm going to get coffee ready for breakfast.  I'm going to make my lunch.  I'm going to clean the litterbox; brush my teeth; wash my face; meditate for 10 minutes and be in bed by 10:30pm.  Asleep by 11pm.

Up at 7am gives me time for a walk.  Up at 6 time for a run.  (But is that a choice I should make just yet?)